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MelissaLaughlin.
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So much to say.
Tuesday, July 20, 2010
I'm.So.Damn.Sick.And.Tired.Of.This. I really am, and you don't even understand. It's been far too long to hold onto someone like this. I've never held on this long with so much feeling left stills. It's not supposed to be like this. It should never have gone on this long. My feelings, I mean. The ones that are stuck there. That I cannot get rid of, god damnit, it's annoying. Because I'm sitting on my ass waiting for something that will never be coming back, and no matter how much I want to get back out there I can't. It doesn't seem right to be with anyone. I can't find it in me to even get back in anything. I'm not saying it's your fault, because really it's mine. I could let go, it's not like your making me .. but it's much more complicating than that really .. because .. I don't even know how to explain this. But something's holding me there. Maybe I'm slowly getting over it and not realizing it. I.Don't.Know. But I hate how you can walk around so happy. Or how you already had girlfriends. It sucks for me, cause I want that happiness back I had before. Doesn't have to be with you, but with anyone. And it's hard to gain that back now .. I wonder if I cross your mind. I used to wonder if you dated to get over me, but I highly doubt that. Because I've realized you've obviously let me go for a reason. I guess I'm not good enough for you anymore, and I guess I never will be. Maybe it's time I get back up and not let you knock me down again. Because like someone said It's like reading the same book over and over again .. you already know the ending, and sometimes that ending isn't so great. It's time to start a new book. Maybe it's about time I move on .. if I can, that is. |
Goodbye.
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